Anyway,
I think I'll try to be more perpetual on blogging. After all, I'm gonna use this blog someday when I finally arrived in Japan HAHA (confidence level over 1000000%)
......
God. That's what I'm really terrified of. So awful. Thinking about my biggest dream I really want to achieve.....desperately.
Just so you know, I've passed the National Exam (that inferno!) with the result--pretty satisfying to be proud of-- average score 88.5
Here's what my scores look like
This is what I've been dreaming of for the past 5 years, since 8th grade! To pass this scholarship and fly to Japan.
This score is to gauge my potentiality, and shows that I'm eligible.
I'm confident to take this scholarship and work my hardest and best so I can receive the honor.
My score, however, is the likelihood of proofing that I can surpass the examinations.
But why do I feel so anxious right now?
Maybe because I have so many competitors struggling to reach the same goal.
Maybe the test is too difficult.
Maybe because I'm actually being an excessive confident brat.
Or maybe, I'm too afraid to accept that I could have failed.
It's a competition after all. I should never think that I'm superior among the candidates. I just have to give my best shot, and put my best efforts.
I don't want to be a coward person.
Enough rants.
lol